The Beginning of Selfishly Sharing — My Introduction to the World
It is Sunday, December 3rd, 2017. Yes, I know that the article itself will have this date on it but this article isn’t for a reader.
It’s for me.
Today is the day that, hopefully, I begin truly putting effort into creating something of my own. I’m not sure what that will be, but I think it’s time to start building. At the end of the day, all I know is that I want to be able to look back at my life and see that I gave back more to this world than I took as my own. Lately I’ve been listening to a lot of Gary Vaynerchuck and feeling inspired by his continuous truth. So here marks the beginning of me creating something. ANYTHING.
Starting with this post that I expect nobody to read.
I want my funeral to be full of people whom are proud of the person I was. And, at this point in life, I know that I’m just not there yet. I know that I’m introverted and have a hard time connecting with people. I know that I am somewhat paralyzed by this entirely misplaced feeling that anything I do will be harshly judged by those who I am closest to. But I also know that I’ve got time grow. I’m young — 27 to be exact. So I’m writing this not thinking that there will ever be any readers. I’m writing this to create a public reminder for myself of what I believe my purpose is. I want to be able to look back on this post when I’m older and see that 27 year old me would be excited to be who I became.
I’ve had this mantra for nearly a decade now that I use to guide my career decisions — “I want to be a strong leader at the forefront of technology pushing society towards the future in whatever way that I can”. Fortunately, as one of the Branch Heads at the Georgia Tech Research Institute, I think I’ve achieved that goal already. Which, in a way, is depressing. The chase of realizing this goal is over and I’m only 27. I could do this for the rest of my life and live comfortably. But for some reason, this feeling of impending stagnation terrifies me.
To combat this sense of urgency I feel to create new goals and achieve more, I want to embolden my passions! I want to double down on my strengths and begin to provide value to you; the reader. Whomever you are. If anyone even read this.
Welcome! There will be plenty more to come.